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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

OMG, suddenly ...

Everything works !! I come home, turn the computer on, try to one more last time run Putty, and it works !! Out of the blue.

Then, I try to change my path in Unix, and after the few tries (which are definitely user errors, not the problem of the system), it works flawlessly !!

So how is that possible, how come it didn't work for last 5 days when I tried all I could and all I couldn't, but now out of sudden it just works by itself, without me doing anything? Is this normal? Am I part of Matrix, when the computer and agent Smith is just making things either work or not work, and then programs some failure feelings into me making every thing look real ?

I sure hope not.

Monday, March 9, 2009

I am so frustrated

I am actually very, very frustrated. I am pregnant, and I'm still taking the University classes, I study the Computer systems certificate. Every day I come home and something is not working. First we lost the wireless connection on notebook, then the internet on the computer, then the printer. I spend hours I don't have every day trying to find out what's happening and how to fix it (internet and printer are fixed, but the wireless is not) I am so frustrated that this should be easy, given what I study, yet nothing is just working.

I work full time and I come home at 9 pm the earliest. I am so tired since I'm pregnant but I try so hard to just get everything done. Well now the new problem: I got a really hard assignement for my Unix class. I am not really good with Unix, first time I saw it was actually 3 weeks ago (I worked with systems based on it, but never Unix itself) Well I have no idea how to do any of that excercise so I started right away to make sure that I get everything done. I started doing the research, read the book and joined online support groups.

To no avail. Not only I don't know how to do it, I can't even connect. The first two nights I spent fixing my path, cause I apparently messed up something and my scripts wouldn't work. I wasted so much time while I could be working on the excercises. But the best was yet to come: on Friday, I couldn't log in at all. Every day I come home and try to fix it, that thing will not connect, it gives me the "putty fatal error, connection timed out". I read the whole internet, I cried a bucket but it just won't work. I have no idea how I can write the assignment anymore if I cannot even connect and I'm losing my faith in my ability to learn. I am so frustrated and I now am starting to think that maybe I just got too much on my shoulders and I cannot do it all. I only have two more days left and I haven't even started.

I am really, really frustrated.

I got tagged


Two names you go by
1. Molly
2. Nikka

Two things you're wearing now:
1. Maternity pants
2. Burnt orange T-shirt

Two things you would want in a relationship:
1. Communication
2. Respect

Two of your favorite things to do:
1. Knitting
2. Synchro skating

Two things you want very badly at the moment:
1. Go home
2. Sleep

Two things you did yesterday:
1. Cried cause printer didn't work
2. Knit two pairs of cashmere gloves

Two things you ate yesterday:
1. Starbucks green tea frapuccino (I did eat it with a spoon so it counts!!)
2. Rye bread with an egg

Two people you last talked to (it was at work):
1. y***a
2. 8***1

Two things you're doing tomorrow:
1. Study Unix
2. Cry while studying Unix

Two favorite holidays:
1. Halloween
2. Christmas

Two favorite beverages:
1. Diet coke
2. Maple sirup lemonade

Two favorite cities:
1. Boston
2. Sfax
2. Moscow
2. Tunis
2. Bellingham
2. Zlin
2. Honolulu
2. Dublin
2. Prague
2. New York
2. Andover, MA

Two favorite movies:
1. Matrix
2. Only You

Two people no longer alive that you'd like to talk to:
1. Robert Addie
2. Kubicek

Two people you are tagging to fill this out:
1. Harley
2. M+M+T

Saturday, March 7, 2009

And the money question

So now when we are done with our homestudy and the papers are in the translating process, and we have our baby girl on the way, we have time to sit down, breath and ... look at our bills. Just really quickly cause they scary !! These things are so expensive. We are not the richest people and although we can still manage, we both would love if they are little lower. Plus I want to buy a crib and the dresser for the nursery, the cloth diapers, stroller, maybe go for a short vacation before the baby is born (we only went once during our 6 years marriage and that was almost free as I worked in a travel agency)

On other hand, we are extremely lucky to have jobs, be healthy and have the debt management in plan. It's still scary but we are glad for what we have, it could be worse. So now, since all our major expenses have been already processed, we can only do better !!! (and pay the bills off)

On other note, I think I now feel the baby. It feels so cute ! We cannot wait for her to come. I never liked summer but this year, I seriously can't can't can't wait.

I also would like you to look at two blogs I follow, they have some posts about helping the children. They both have such good causes and I would like to help them spread the word about their fundraisings. Please visit them and see if you could help.

For Children's hospital in Seattle and SISU children's fund:
click here
March of Dimes Bay area (helping extremely premature babies):
click here

Monday, March 2, 2009

Very weird people

This morning I went to Michaels, to pick up one yarn (yeah one !!) I needed for a custom order. When waiting to pay, another cashiers was called in. I assumed I was next (there were two people at one counter, the second one waiting for refund and another person at the counter 2) So I paid, and stuff and all was fine.

When I was leaving, there was a very well kept lady in front of me looking like she's waiting for me, turning constantly and stopping and going. I thought that maybe she wants to comment on my belly and ask if I'm knitting something for the baby. But she then start to have very weird comments, like "next, huh", and "people like you..." and more I didn't understand. So I asked her and she turned and walked away. Then she stopped again and made more comments. Again I asked what she meant, I didn't understand. She said" well be glad you didn't!, how convenient, huh!!" Then she spit my way (not on me but just my way) so at that point I called the security who was standing behind and left the mall. Not good to get upset when you are pregnant and on the way to work !!

Then I was thinking about it, what exactly I did wrong, if anything. I then thought that maybe she meant that she was next...?? But she already had her stuff on the counter and she was talking to that cashiers. Plus she was turned to her, so from the behind I wouldn't see anything anyway. On top of that she seemed like she has a refund (her stuff was in the bag from what I saw) and they only do refunds on counter 1. And even if she really was next, and time was of essence, why would she wait for me outside and follow me for another ten minutes !! I don't really get these people. I hope the security guy gave her some tough questions and that she just calmed down. Furthermore I really didn't understand what she said, if she would explain what happened, maybe it would help me realized if I really did something wrong and apologize (the last thing I'd want on Monday morning is to intentionally make someone mad and cut in front of people) But at this point I really, really don't know.

Aren't people really weird these days?